I've been struggling a bit lately, I'm tired of hearing the baby cry, tired of being interrupted by ANOTHER request for snacks, juice, help buttoning pants, putting on socks... HELLO Amy, this is MOTHERHOOD. I was getting pretty annoyed with everything and through a series of small little reminders, the Lord showed me how selfish I've been. Oh how selfish I was being, "can't they just leave me alone for five minutes?" has been turned around. "What can I do to show them how much I love them at this moment?" Elijah has gotten so much better about letting other people hold him, Mom and Dad had him for several hours yesterday and he didn't cry for them at all. Today we had a party for Mom's retirement and I hardly held him, he was content in other people's arms. And other people were kind enough to relieve me, take him for me so I could play with Archer and Shelly in the water. It was what I needed, a little break from constantly tending E so I could play with the older two, and the Lord provided it. And somehow, in that break, in discussions with people in my family, in an article so queitly placed in my in-box about mothering, I realized how backwards I've been and the need to turn around. Get my attitude headed in the right direction.
I call out to the LORD, and he answers me from his holy mountain.
~Psalm 3:4
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