Worry...

I've had a few tough days lately, the kids are driving me especially crazy and I'm not sure if its me that's changed or them, but they seem so intolerable. Anyway, I love them still, of course. But I've been on the edge. And this leads me to all my insecurities about motherhood - how I'm not patient enough, kind enough, disciplined enough, energetic enough... The list goes on.

I had a huge revelation a little while ago, and it was this: God does not tell me to be a good mother with a list of things that make me into a good mom. He tells me to love him, and love my children. That's it. No list, no rulebook about how much tv is too much or about how organized my house should be, or how many vegetables and fruits they should be eating... He just wants me to love him and love my children. That's more about an outlook than a rulebook. Thank the Lord I don't have to live up to all those rules because I already know I'm failing miserably at that! But I'm not failing at following his command to love him and love my family. And through that love, I trust God to teach me and lead me and help me grow. Its definitely not an easy process, but I know he will show me the fruits of the seeds I'm sowing. I just have to wait for his timing.

Don’t worry about anything, instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.
~ Philippians 4:6