Disappointment

How do you teach your kids to deal with it? Something that seems trivial to us grown ups but is so big for them, I'm learning to be more compassionate, not just blow it off and tell them to get over it. But it doesn't change the facts. Life comes with disappointments.

We thought we might get to go... We can't. You thought you could have just a little more ice cream, I said no. You wanted to watch... someone else watched something else that you didn't like. Some of these are trivial. Some are really really big.What can I say? "I'm sorry you're sad." Can I tell them how I get it? How I understand because I've been there? Way back when I was a kid and... Do they care about way back then? Way back yesterday when I expected, and didn't get what I had hoped for. What I feel like I desparately needed. It didn't happen, I was disappointed.

This awful feeling of not controlling what happens and wanting something so badly but it just can't come true today, I've been feeling it lately. I've been feeling the Lord leading me back to him lately, always there, the pull, come back, come closer. The world disappoints. "I give you what you need."

Why am I chasing after these things in my heart that are not really where God is leading? The Lord has given me what I need. And then some, and more and too many blessings to count. Somehow I still am disappointed in moments when I expected more and it leaves me wondering why I hoped. It leaves me trying to remember that the Lord is more than enough, that he is with me, that I have exactly what I need and more than I ever could have hoped for, all right under my very own roof.