Elijah: 1 Year

Can you believe it? Me neither. ONE WHOLE YEAR! Just in the last week he's started saying "Ma" and he's gotten much more confident with his walking. Still not completely stable, but he's making great strides. (Plus now he's climbing. Nothing's going to stop him!)

What an amazing journey this last year has been. A new person in our family, new routines, schedules, new teaching. Archer and Shelly are like little parents, sometimes I hear them saying things to E that I say to them and its a double edged sword. Good, yes. But I hear those things I wish I hadn't said also coming out of their mouths. Ugh. Be careful, little ears are listening and little mouths are repeating! Archer actually babysits for us now sometimes on Saturday mornings. He watches E while I sleep in or do other stuff. As long as I stay out of the living room and Elijah doesn't see me, this works pretty well. And as long as I pay the babysitter well, he's willing to do it again.

I feel like I'm always obsessing about time. "Time goes so fast!" I'm always writing it on the blog, always thinking it. And at the little moments during my day, obsessing about how many minutes before I tell Arch to get his shoes on and send him out the door, how many minutes to get Shell's coat on, buckle everyone in, and take the two minute trip to the bus stop. Three hours till they come home. Five minutes till I start supper. "Two minutes to bedtime!" I call out.

I've had this question on my mind lately. How does God experience time? He is eternal, so somehow time doesn't exist for him. Or time exists, it passes but never runs out. He exists outside the limits of time (as we experience it) but is eternal which means He has all of it, probably holds it in his hand or something. What does God think of my fixation on the clock? My fear that time is passing me by too quickly and I'll miss something, my obsession about being on time and yet always being late. God is in control, surely. Does He ever go back... change it?

I digress. Elijah's birthday, the first anniversary of his birth, is truly a celebration in our family and as we go back, in our memories, to that day when he joined us, we celebrate and look forward to the many years ahead, the many fun times we'll have, the smiles we'll share. I look forward to seeing where we'll end up, but I'm enjoying the journey along the way!

I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.
Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before; and God will call the past to account.
~ Eccl 3:14:15