Whatever happens, stay alive. By Virginia Wolf

 Whatever happens, stay alive.

Don't die before you're dead.
Don't lose yourself, don't lose hope, don't lose direction. Stay alive, with yourself, with every
cell of your body, with every fiber of your skin. Stay alive, learn, study, think, read, build, invent, create, speak, write, dream, design.
Stay alive, stay alive inside you, stay alive also outside, fill yourself with colors of the world, fill yourself with peace, fill yourself with hope.
Stay alive with joy.
There is only one thing you should not waste in life, and that's life itself...
Whatever happens, stay alive.
Don't die before you're dead.
Don't lose yourself, don't lose hope, don't lose direction. Stay alive, with yourself, with every
cell of your body, with every fiber of your skin. Stay alive, learn, study, think, read, build, invent, create, speak, write, dream, design.
Stay alive, stay alive inside you, stay alive also outside, fill yourself with colors of the world, fill yourself with peace, fill yourself with hope.
Stay alive with joy.
There is only one thing you should not waste in life, and that's life itself...
- Virginia Woolf

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I was laid off on 12/5. I almost saw it coming, but not quite. I cried during the meeting.

I've been trying to stay positive but it's hard to stay motivated. Today David called me out on not getting out of bed till 9. Who f***ing cares what time I get up, no one's waiting on me to tell them how to ship stuff.

I've been waiting for health insurance coverage from David's employer for 1 month. This has been a pretty poor execution of enrollment to their benefits. I don't know whether to blame his HR department or the health insurance company. Either way, I want to write a letter of complaint to someone. Don't worry, I won't. The last time I stopped taking my medicine, I ended up in the hospital for a week. Two years later, I'm still paying off that bill.

Did I ever tell you, I have this thing called Box of Worries? When I get really stressed, I just make a list. Then I try to move on, take some action. I'm on hold with the health insurance company right now, they can't find me in their system. So I was looking through my notes and found a Box of Worries from a few weeks ago.

Finding a job
Getting the kids to school
Christmas
***'s declining health
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
Health insurance

Today I still don't have pharmacy information.

My kids are missing school left and right.

And we're hosting a birthday party for 100 people in 2 days.