There are those days, maybe cloudy, gloomy, maybe the weather's fine but there's a storm going on inside. Inside the house, or the heart... somewhere.
This morning Elijah and I had this kind of day...
Sunshiney. It was cool outside but no bother, we played, chasing each other, rolling on the ground, moved inside for hide and seek, tummy love, kisses and raspberries, building a tower with blocks. Laughing all the way.
Tonight, after school, it felt more like this...
What seemed like a hundred messages back and forth about PTA stuff, a phone call to a fundraising company, interrupted by someone asking permission to go for a bike ride, someone else needing help with shoes, trying to cook dinner, storms of friendship, a hundred phone calls about weekend plans, more storms of friendship (do you call them friends when they treat you so badly?). All in just two hours' time, this storm blew through our kitchen.
Its so easy to go from one to the other, blooming and beautiful to withered, exhausted and worn out. I try to keep the smile on my face, or at least calm in my voice, knowing that my tone influences theirs. These first two weeks of school have exhausted us all. We're staying up too late, getting up too early, never slowing down to catch our breath. Even when there's nothing planned after school, the kids stay outside as long as possible, I guess trying to use up every ounce of energy before they're called in to homework and dinner.
This parenting thing is exhausting. And exhilarating. I'm just really hoping that my moments of this...
are far outweighed by these...









